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I am asking for prayers for Chris and I. Some stuff happened on Sunday. Sunday we were going to the Demolition Derby with Chris daughters. I decided I wanted to leave and go home, because it felt really akward being around Chris daughters, because of the stuff they have said to me in the past that they hate me and so on. So, things escalated between Chris and I we got into a huge fight at the demolition derby. I took the car back home and left them there . Chris called me names. I came home and bought a bottle of red wine and some beers drank myself silly . I went downstairs to the neibours and complained to them about my problems. I told chris i was leaving him and moving in with my friend. I was sick that night after drinking. Whenever problems occur or i cant deal with something even if its minor i turn to drinking to cope. Chris said he wants a wife that has a relationship with his kids, but they are adults and if we dont get along it cannot be forced. Chris said to me being a Christian you should forgive them for what they have done in the past to you and to stop holding grudges against his kids. And for me To also stop avoiding his kids too. He says that he wants his wife at his side when family stuff is going on. I have anxiety and depression when i start talking to him about it he says i dont listen to the advice he gives me.. which is to let Jesus into your heart he told me.. but its hard when he doesnt want to read the bible with me or pray with me . He said that he fell in love with the old Mianna the one who was positive confident and motivating. He says that i dont take my own advice and i dont believe in myself. He told me that i have changed a lot and that we need to fix things
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Thank You all. Chris said that he fell in love with the old Mianna. Now im finding this a bit hurtful. Because i feel now he doesn't love me anymore. I asked him yesterday what he wants from me. He said he wants me to stop getting upset over little things and that I take things way too seriously . He wants me to let Jesus into my heart, but he hasn't?
He would like me to be there for family stuff, to be more forgiving, to stop holding grudges against people that have hurt me in the past, to not let be so stressed out and to let things bug me, doesn't want me to pressure him to buy alcohol for me when i get stressed out or upset. He doesn't want me to change who i was in the beginning , which i was a happy, positive person. He doesn't like the fighting or argueing, blaming eachother e.t.c. According to Chris he feels that I want his attention all the time 24/7. Chris said if I had my own way the Television would not be on and that I would want him to talk and show love. That was his words. I am sorry for the longer prayer request. I just needed prayers and people's input on the situation. Thank You all.