thank you so very much Rachel Sara and Marjorie. I definately need the encouragement I am blessed to have you all to turn to. Thank you! Marorie, I always have a song in head and I will try to make sure that the one I use does a good job. Today it has been Hillys and Valleys. I appreciate your idea!
YOU ARE MOST WELCOME MADAM FIESTY! AND YES IT CONSTANTLY AMAZES ME AND SADDENS ME THAT PEOPLE REALLY ENJOY, SEEK TO, PLAN TO, WANT TO KILL, STEAL, AND DESTROY OUR HOPE, OUR PEACE, OUR JOY, AND OUR STEADFAST STRUGGLE TO CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY, PATIENT, STANDING IN THE FACE OF THINGS. BUT THEN THAT IS THEIR JOB, TO KNOWINGLY OR UNKNOWINGLY TURN HOPE INTO DESPAIR, FAITH INTO DOUBT, PEACE INTO WAR, PATIENCE INTO ANGER IN ALL THINGS. BUT WHEN IT HAPPENS I REMIND MYSELF, I WOULD NEVER WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE ALWAYS ANGRY, ALWAYS HOPELESS, ALWAYS DOUBTING, AND ALWAYS SEEKING TO DESTROY ANYONE WHO DOES NOT THINK, FEEL, AND BELIEVE AS THEY DO! SO I HAVE LEARNED TO STOP....BREATHE BREATHE BREATHE...AND THEN SMILE...IT DRIVES THEM NUTS!
working on it Faithy!!!! I say that to myself and in prayer...take this anger I do not want to feel this way....but it still takes me so long to get to that point of normal happy me....I need to detach and see the actions differently and not personnaly...so much is going on at the same time...I cannot loose this fight.
Faith in the future...each of us needs this
YES WE DO KITTY KAT. REMEMBER THE REAL BATTLE IS NOT OURS...THE BATTLE BELONGS TO THE LORD JESUS WHO LOVES US, DEFENDS US, STRENGTHENS US, ENCOURAGES US, AND REMINDS US TO RISE UP...RISE UP...RISE UP...WHEN I TAKE MY FOCUS OFF THE HATE, THE ANGER, THE LOUD UNHAPPY VOICES SCREECHING AT ME, AND THE DIRE WARNINGS AND PROGNOSIS OF THOSE 3 MONKEY MENTALITIES...AND TURN MY HEART, MIND, AND BODY TO THE PROMISES OF JESUS, AND STAY IN PRAYER...I CAN SHUT OUT THE WHITE NOISE, THE STATIC, ALL THE KNOWING AND UNKNOWING DARKNESS THAT SEEKS TO DROP KICK ME INTO THE BLACK HOLE OF DESPAIR...I FIND STRENGTH, RENEWAL, COURAGE IN OUR JESUS ....AND I RISE!!! YOU SWEET SISTER WILL TOO. YOU HAVE THE RIGHT, AS MY MOTHER OFTEN SAYS, " I CHOOSE TO DIVORCE MYSELF FROM THIS HISSIE FIT; THIS FAMILY ARGUMENT. YOU ALL CARRY ON WITHOUT ME!"